patiently waiting -- anticipating -- look at what you made of me =/. look how everything chooses to fall apart, at one blink of my eye, before the eyelids even close to kiss. look how everything falls apart. in one swift motion of your tongue, as you begin to form your words. form the very sentences that make me cringe to my knees, you take it back. you took back every meaningful thing you every told me. every word that lit up my pathetic little life for a day or two, is gone. your lies start to form some sort of truth. the same truth i been longing to here for some time now. this truth i prayed for. & cried when i heard it. pain so deep, the one way to describe it is "a gun shot threw my heart, piercing my soul ripping threw my ol so tough exterior that i tried so hard to maintain for 18yrs now" & with being revealed. i found strength. to possably walk away from the one thing that brings me more joy then anyone in this world, & that causes me more pain then i can ever cause myself. not saying i am gonna walk away & never look back. im just saying im capable. & for me -- that gives me strength. but when the day comes when i feel as if i have nothing. & all the strength that i`ve built up, slowly dissolves, & the damage is to critical for repair, then perhaps . . . . maybe . . . . i`ll have to find someone -- who is cable of loving me, with out hurting .i l o v e m e . e v e n w h e n U d o n t !
- jene`e lezlie crawford
