it amaze`s me that one can be alone in the word.
that one can be physically & emotionally ALONE ,
alone in a world that tends to 6o billion people ; some one can still be alone.
that a person can feel like they have no one to connect to or relate to in any aspect of conversation. or any aspect of life period. the fear of being by your self & isolated can make ones stomach twist & maneuver in such ways causing one to vomit. vomit everything they ever wanted & dreamed of becoming. one can loose there self. one can be so alone that it becomes dangerous. every where they turn is a wall. every where they run is a dead end. they go crazy. they feel like everything is being hidden from them. & everything is a secret. peace is unattainable. & happiness is the furthest thing from being tamed. they feel trapped. trapped in there own mind. trapped in there own insecurities & thoughts which they try so hard to hide. trapped in everything that makes them different. everything that makes them not like . . . you.
so one runs. one runs leaving nothing behind but tears & there soul. tears so salty. & a soul so pure.


_ j.l.c
_a recovering patient.

sanity & a insane world !

walking around with my head down i have no thought. i carry no determination to finish the day. i just rather walk around with my head down. please nobody speak to me.im bond to blow up. today lyke everyday ; i live .
don't get me wrong now, nobody can understand the emotion & gratitude i give to the lord right now for letting me live. but all i wanna know is why ?
why let me continue living with the same fuxxed up lyfe i live.
im angry.
im angry to the point where i just wanna cry.
cry because it saddens me to know that i can be this angry.
angry at who?
im yet to really pen point the person.
but there`s diffidently something inside me, bringing me to the point where i just wanna lash out at somebody.
the innocence i once use to carry, transformed to nothing more then hatred.
please nobody speak to me.
i just rather walk around with my head down.