my flesh & my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart & my portion 4ever
pslam 73:26

& when its all said & done .
& when my family & friends have forsaking me,
the lord will still be with me.

lord please bless me. have mercy.
i apologize. for i have sined.

_ j.l.c

i really don't know what to say. i have alot of thoughts, but i just cant seem to muster them up into the perfect sentences in paragraphs. right now my life is getting hard. so hard to the point where I'm hurting physically & emotionally. i never knew pain like this existed. even a simple everyday glance in the mirror brings me to tears. draws me to the point where i cant stop looking. so now my everyday glance is now a stare down. a stare down with myself. causing me to ask the same unanswered question I've been harvesting for 4 years now. "who are you ?" is the continuous question i ask myself. i cant help but to stare in the mirror & see what Ive become. NOTHING. i haven't accomplished anything. i haven't made no name for my self what so ever. i have no interest or determination to do anything at all. im just blah. its an on going battle with me. i always got somthing to say about everything. always felling the need to defend myself. to me it feels as if theres constintly a group of people against me. so i cry. long & hard, i cry. & now i sit here before you ; all cryed out .


i was born into a world that wasnt perfect .
i was born into a world of sin.
_ jene`e lezlie crawford